i need time to myself. i need to find myself again. i need to focus on me.

i already deactivated facebook and twitter. i need space from everything and everyone.

i cant believe how much i spent on christmas presents :/

i really should be at school right now, but i’m so drained, i dont think i wouldve lasted today :/

Going to finish up my christmas shopping later on today, in the process of wrapping the presents i already bought, i wish i wrapped them last night, but i got tired after wrapping all of babe’s presents for him. he even ended up wrapping my mom’s gift for me while i went to sleep, lol. jeeez, i cant believe how much i already spent. saving up right after this holiday madness is over.

Also, i’m getting promoted at work to accessory manager. yay. finally some good news in my life. just waiting for approval from the district manager. funny because i was really about to quit too, but i guess ill be there for a couple more months. i’m really just eager to see how much my raise is. graduating school in one month, hopefully missing today doesnt have bad consequences, but we’ll see. things are starting to get better, hopefully its uphill from here.

currently in my boyfriends room studying while he’s at work. i know his day has already been hectic from all the arguing and fighting yet he gets up early in the morning to pick me up at home, even though its an hour drive away. sorry for putting you through that :(

*sigh.. i really dont know what i would do without this guy. i dont care how corny it sounds. he really makes everything better no matter how stressed, mad, or sad i feel. everything my boyfriend does, big or small means the world to me. 

anyways, thanks babe for driving to me this morning even though you had to be at work. i know in the end we’ll always work out our problems no matter how bad it seems.

i wish we were spending christmas together :/ but its ok we’ll forsure spend new years together and ill see you right when i get back from la. i still dont know if i should give you your present before or after la.

well, you’ll be home in a couple hours, see you soon! i love you jonathan m. calata♥